show off

do not look down on uneducated people,
look at the reason behind their fate;
maybe it is because of luck,
you are lucky to get such parents and he is not.

overtake

when a car overtake me,
i want to speed up my bike;
but my brain tell me, "let us reach safely",
"they are waiting for you and do not disappoint them".

God is watching

a kid said, "i will tell everything to God" before he died due to child abuse,
i was wondering does he need to tell it?
i hope silence of God is just a sign that He is waiting for the correct moment to punish them,
i wish it is not a sign that He is still giving a chance for them to change.

smile

i paused a while whenever people said "you are always smiling",
i am happy because i know that i have succeed in covering my sadness;
i wish they never dream to be myself,
because it is not easy to be fake.

career

medical doctor is a need for human,
engineer is a doctor for science and technology;
for the first time i felt that i am a doctor too,
thanks for "Non-Destructive Testing".

waiting

i wish to go home too,
but my spirit asked me, "do you want lose to your enemy called separation?";
"your mum will be happier with your return or when you back with a victory?",
"just wait for 23 days more".

23 years

it is not fair... it is not fair... IT IS NOT FAIR!!!
why we are the only one have to struggle for 23 years???
even if a material have tested for that long period, it may have lost its strength and durability by time,
do not ever appear in front of me because You may fed up with all those questions i ask not wishes.

silence

i was thinking,
expressing everything we feel is harder or keep everything we feel silently is harder?
because i am confuse that i have make others struggle or i am struggling?
i hope i do not burden anyone.

absence of dad

when my twin and i curiously waiting for our name to be called on "Award of Excellence" day in school, i saw my mum was sitting alone in the crowd watching us with a little smile on her face,
when we were registered in boarding school, my mum brings us by taxi to the hostel and go back by walking alone to bus station,
she never knows that her twin babies were watching her leaving the hostel from their room window,
my twin never knows that i was crying at that moment and perhaps she was crying too but i never know.

bitter and sweet

today i realized that not i am the one teach each step of my sis,
life teach her;
perhaps the teaching way is similar because when i was teaching her driving, i strictly said, "if you do not want to drive, then let us wait in this middle of the road until the end and sure i will not drive you back",
same goes when life teach my sis, "do it yourself and sure i will not do it for you".

small eyes

one night, i rode motorcycle,
i admire my eyes at that moment because i realize its effort to give me clear vision by absorb the surrounding light;
i have determined that i should be as my eyes too,
no matter how dark my path is, i should not stop walking but must make sure i am walking in a right path by torch the path with my hope, confident and faith on Him.

sacrifice

thanks to my mum and dad,
whenever we have financial problem, they never ask us to go for work;
and they never ask us to eat little,
but she scarifies her needs and even food to make sure we never feel the difference.