fake dream

I wish to sleep in tiredness,
so that my brain will stop thinking,
will stop refreshing,
and will stop reminding about my dad.

4 months ago, my dad was sleeping on ground-floor in living room,
while my twin and i sleep on upstairs,
today i'm still sleeping on upstairs while imagining my dad is sleeping on downstairs,
i'm going to sleep now with a hope that will see my dad in living room when i leave for work tomorrow morning,
good night dad...

Letter for dad

I miss you...
I miss those word you used to call me, "child"...
I miss you totally...
Don't worry dad, we will meet up there soon...
We will be the "happiest" family up there...
everything will be alright dad...
I'm happy that you don't suffer anymore with all those pains...
but dad I'm only happy for you not for myself...
Love you dad...
I rarely said it because I know you will struggle to leave me...
but I know you knew it... (hope you knew it)