complicated life

i feel sad when you never stand,
i have forgot your height dad;
it is funny when mum have to hold your hand and pull it while you sit on a cloth,
it is sad when i realize this scene will be your fixed path.

Conclusion

human will find you when they are down, they are suffering or they need something from you,
the same piece of meat with blood will never put single effort for you when you need them,
perhaps the time required for you is worth for other things,
dont feel guilty to be a devil for these kind of asshole.

Bold

i thought being bold is a good value,
now i know that people tend to leave you when you are bold,
they believe you can breath and move on no matter what happen,
thanks for "them"...

Self-respect

only i get excited to meet and talk to everyone,
none get excited to meet me or talk to me,
maybe because it was so long i never talk to strangers called as friends,
i learned i should only smile a little, i should delay in message replying, i should not answer every call, i should stop telling stories of what i went trough yesterday.

dark world

as I'm getting old,
dark no more scare me...
i thought  He was cruel,
but He is not because He was teaching me on how to live in darkness..